A round up of the year

I didn’t write much this year, it became something people were always telling me I should be doing, and at that point my interest in it evaporated.

A year is a long time, it doesn’t always feel like it, but a lot can happen in a few days, never mind over the course of hundreds of them.

As a person I am prone to focusing on my faults, what I did wrong, what I shouldn’t have done, and what I definitely should have. I don’t admit to myself when I’ve done well and I don’t celebrate my successes nearly enough, instead I spend time thinking about what I could have achieved during said celebrations. Like it’s a bad thing to be proud of something.

In the modern world and the age of social media, we have access to so much information not only about the world, but everyone in it. What car they just bought, what they ate for breakfast, the award they just won or the incredible holiday they just jetted back from. I’m so aware of what everyone else is doing, how well they’re doing it. it’s easy to forget that I might have done something well too.

Not that a year is all rainbows and daisies, that I’ve had just the most incredible time and nothing is really wrong I’m just being exceedingly negative. I had my ups, but I definitely had my downs alongside them.

But instead of looking back on this year, and everything that happened in it, trying to condense it down into a ‘good’ or a ‘bad’ year. I’m just going to look at it as it is, a period of my life that falls under the name ‘2019’, a period where I laughed harder than ever before, cried more than I thought was possible, met people who changed me irreversibly, travelled further than before, ate the most incredible food, picked up bad habits (but more good ones), pushed myself to my limits and learnt more about myself and the world than in all my other years combined.

I made a lot of mistakes this year, I did a lot of things, both good and bad, that a younger me could never have imagined I would do. But I don’t regret anything, I think that living in regret is a waste of time. it stops you learning from a situation, and growing into a better person, a better you.

So my round up of my year is this; 2019 taught me a lot. But it also taught me to always be ready to learn more. Here’s to the next decade.